That question, all of sudden came through my mind today. I’ve always been ‘normal’ like others – I could walk, run, jump; own complete body parts… I always thought it was normal – like every people should be. It’s not that I didn’t know there are difables (for not using the word ‘disabled’) in this world, I just never think of them that much. Probably that’s because of the bad system in my country which doesn’t give enough care about the community.

Since I was a kid, I’ve been shown incredible difable people – a great painter who paints with her feet because she’s got no hands; she’s the only person I could remember ‘coz it seems like I’ve been losing memories these days. But why did I still don’t think of it seriously? Because people usually don’t think what they have.

I thought it was normal to be able to walk or run; now that I can’t run, I always miss it and keep asking “why can’t I?”.

I thought it was normal to do everything fast, and kept saying “how slow. can’t you do it faster?” to those who didn’t work as fast as I did; now that I need to do everything slower, I feel weird.

I thought it was normal to have a good memory; now that I’m always troubled in memorizing, I feel like being tortured.

I thought it was normal to have good reflex & spatial ability; now that I lost them, it’s frustrating.

I thought it was normal to be active, bumping into new activities everyday; now that I don’t have enough strength to do that, I feel lonesome.

I thought it was even normal to breathe; now that sometimes it’s hard for me to breathe…. I soon think of death.

I was respectless to what I had, been too much concentrated on what I had not. Maybe God is punishing me for being arrogant; or He’s just helping me to realize how great my life is. He’s been giving me lots of things but I always ask more and more. Now, I want to thank God for everything He’s been giving before I lose more. But, even if I lose more I would not stop respecting what I still have ’til I have nothing left.

We, humans, are selfish – but we don’t hope for being worse, right?