Few months a go, I made a decision for chasing my dreams in music & being an enterpreneur. I promised myself not to give up no matter what. I know it’s gonna be tough, but I’m gonna do it!

Yesterday, after a very deep thought, I decided to go back to my design world. It doesn’t mean that I give up music, but I really need money to live, right? So I made up my CV and portfolio. I thought, tomorrow’s concert’s gonna be my last opportunity in my univ. orchestra. Say goodbye to your friends, Putri…

But then, my friend from OSNI said, “Putri, dont forget to come to the 3rd audition.” which means I’ve passed the 2nd audition. What?? I’ve decided to leave music completely and that was what I got! Surprising – or rather shocking!

I couldn’t sleep well last night, because I thought about music & design a lot. If I leave my orchestra, I won’t be able to play viola anymore (because I’m using their viola…). If I leave abroad, or even only to Bali, what’s gonna happen with my string quartet? Will I be irresponsible because of that?

I couldn’t make a choice, so I tried to seek for an interior designer job opportunities. Unpredictably, I found it rather quick! I also have the qualifications needed.

What should I do?

It’s like I’m trapped between 2 different worlds which wouldn’t want me to leave them. I won’t make any promise any more, It’s like cursing myself…